Lucy Of The Blue

So I'll leave and...

2005-11-03T18:02:05Z

...now I'm here -

http://www.livejournal.com/users/blueforeternity

Add me there or I'll add you if I can

kthxbye

Eh...

2005-11-02T22:27:26Z

OK, well I got my DA and sent out those two list thingys like I said I was going to.

By email and by DA *my page only*...yeah.

Now, gonna go downtown and return the binder...possibly buy another one.

Then get the bus, buy a bag of chips, go home and scorch myself with Tapatio.

So

2005-11-02T21:14:48Z

Finally got my Yahoo Address Book done. I plan to send out those two list thingys to my family, hope I don't get rejected in any way/shape/form. I also plan to post it on my DA. In awhile I'll go downtown and return that binder I bought, when I looked at it it was bent. Oh well. Then I'll prolly go to CyberZone or Suncoast...both maybe? I got $48 right now. I was going to buy stuff off the net but rethought it, good thing I did, too. I'll prolly buy a CD and a manga...dunno yet.

See how it all works out...

Oh yeah, and I've made up my mind. I WILL move out of my parent's house. Dad'll be home on the 8th *sooner, hopefully?* of December. The Change of Address Kit I saw at the post office expires on December 31st...so I really wanna move out by then. I'll be moving into the little house/shed next to Gammy's house. It's the house that Dad used to live in when he was in the army. I plan to paint the house light blue and have the borders medium blue...damn, I'll hafta look around. Possibly Dad'll suggest Home Depot. I know Nina'll suggest Lowe's. *sigh* Well, good thing is that the house is right in the backyard so I'll have easy access to it. Plus I'll have all the privacy I'll need. I really hope I'll get to move out sometime next month, but seeing as my parents and my grandma have that court shit about the dog, I really think that'll fuck my plans up. Shit. I need my space dammit!

Teh true...

2005-11-02T07:35:49Z

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the guy who came out to the entire school in his senior speech and got a standing ovation for his courage.

I am the girl who kisses her girlfriend on the sidewalk and laughs at those who glare.

We are the couple who planned and studied and got a damn good lawyer and BEAT the state that wanted to take our child away.

We are the ones who took martial arts classes and carry pepper spray and are just too dangerous to gaybash.

I am the transgendered person who uses the bathroom that suits me, and demands that any complaining staff explain their complaint to my face in front of the entire restaurant -- and shares with my other trans friends which restaurants /don't/ raise a stink.

I am the mother who told her lesbian daughter to invite her girlfriend over for dinner.

I am the father who punished his son for calling you a fag.

I am the preacher who told my congregation that love, not hate, is the definition of a true follower of God.

Please foward this if you believe homophobia is wrong.

Jacked from blu8e_again

2005-11-02T07:34:34Z

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes something like this:

What Equals 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about ac hieving 103%? What equals 100% in life?

Here's a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z

is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

Then:

H-A-R-D-W-O-R- K
8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98%

and

K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E
11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96%

But,

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%

And,

B-U-L-L-S-H-I-T
2+21+12+12+19+8+9+20 = 103%

AND, look how far ass-kissing will take you.

A-S-S-K-I-S-S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+19+19+9+14+7 = 118%

Therefore, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that:

While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it's the Bullshit and Ass-kissing that will put you over the top !!!!!!

Don't you just Love it?!!!

Just for the hell of it

2005-11-02T07:31:38Z

Don't get depressed about what you can't change. Today is about communication and clearing up anything that has been bothering you. A change at home will be good for you.

That should be my fucking mantra.

Reflections...

2005-11-02T07:29:01Z

Today was well for me I guess. Good thing is that I didn't turn off the alarm *first time in 4ever* and therefore Mom didn't get pissed at me. Abuelito showed up early, and then Angelica showed up cuz she was going to take Mom to the hospital to see Abuelita. Just before Mom was about to leave she called to hospital to check up on her. Surprise...the docs said that Abuelita was walking again, with the help of a therapist! Abuelita's been in the hospital since October 21st...long fucking time. Anyway, I left and got to class on time with a few minutes to spare too. It was a damn good thing I took notes on the busride to school, things are finally looking up in my Women's History class. The last 2 grades I got on my tests were a 10 and a 8. So that's good. After school I decided to go downtown and get my bus pass, and I figured while I was there I'd get my Ebay stuff paid off. Good thing is, I did, bad thing is that the clerk fucked up my money order *21.79 instead of 21.71* but after going through the line AGAIN she corrected it. I got myself two stamp booklets as well, candy hearts. After that I got my stuff in order and filled out everything and sent it in, hadta wait in line some more but meh. I left after that and went to Long's, and on my way over there I saw a homeless man, barefoot, watch carefully by a security guard. He seemed drunk as his words were slurry. I was cautious but went in anyway, I walked as fast as I could to the school supply section and as I was picking up a few things I overheard the guy starting shit, so I quickly got a blue binder and an Xtra Large mailing box and walked up to the line to wait. I was glad I did. I guessed the guards took the guy in...good thing too. After that I went home.

OK, I have a 6 page essay due on the 17th of this month and I haven't even started it yet. It's on "Uncle Tom's Cabin"...ugh. I have a plastic pumpkin that Gammy bought for me for Halloween and with the candy I got from last night plus the goodies Gammy already had for me and it's filled. Yup...
I'll mail out those binders, notebook, the cds and the pens out to Coventry at her new address. My parents and my grandma hafta go to court cuz the guy who got bit by their dog wants 50 thousand bucks. Hope Nina/o can help.

First thing...my new rule is thus: I'll send everything that I don't use/need to Coventry, cuz she loves random crap. OK, what worries me more is my 6 page essay I hafta type up. Dammit, I'm such a procrastinator! Damn...

My Halloween 2005

2005-11-02T07:06:20Z

So Monday was great, to say...

I woke up early, Ricky woke up late. They all blame me, eh? Meh. Anyway, I woke up to the sound of our doorbell ringing. It was Gammy, and she wasn't happy. It was 6 something in the morning on a Monday, gah. Good thing was that Gammy bought me a plastic pumpkin and a mask to go trick or treating, it already had goodies inside it, which was good. Bad thing was that I got blamed for making Ricky late as usual. Oh well. Anyway, I got to class early than usual today and I bought myself a new binder and a new pencil pouch and a 50 pack of envelopes and a jade happiness charm. I figure I'll just send the stuff I don't need/never use to Coventry, she like those things...

Anyway, during class we watched a film about Cesar Chavez. It was great. I liked it. Bad thing is, there'll be a test on the film. Good thing is I wrote a shitload of notes. Got my essay back, a 6 I think. I don't even wanna look. Good thing is, *I handwrit my essay in my blue book*, bad thing is...I think/hope to Buddha I have someone else's.

So, after school I called Mom and then Mom asked if I could go to JITB and get Ricky some food *he wasn't going*, so I gave in and spent my good 5 bux on him. When I got home I ate a cup of noodles and rested awhile, then Nina shows up honking away. As we were going home I complaind that I was 22 years old and to old to go trick or treating. Nina and Gammy both said I wasn't too old and Nina made it clear to me that I *had* to go with Darla. :/ And as soon as we got there Nina fished out her cat costume she let me wear and some kitty ears. It was cute. And since I didn't bring my plastic pumpkin *I didn't realize trick or treating was mandatory!*, Darla let me borrow hers. We got there about 3 something and me and Darla started decorating while Gammy started the food and Nina was doing her thing. Me and Darla helped put up spiderwebs and stuff on the trees and stuff. Then as we were finishing up the trick or treaters started showing up *time change*. So then after awhile Nina and Darla and me went just around the block and across and stuff and got some candy.

I hafta say that I realized that Nina was right. I had forgotten how fun it could be to trick or treat @ Halloween. Man...I had lots of fun, and I scored with candy. I felt teh awesome! ^_^ I told Gammy that I was glad that I could go. Nina was happy too. Thanks to my cat costume, one of the houses we went to had dogs, and they started barking at me! Yeah. But I was OK though. Then on our last stop, Nina's neighbor, as we were leaving to go home I saw Festez, the cat that Angel adopted *I think?*. And I motioned for it to come towards me, and it did! It was the cutest damn thing! I was about to pet Festez but I heard "LUCY!!!!", the call of Nina telling me to leave. Crap. Oh well.

Anyways, I had a really good time being out with my family tonight, it was teh fun. And Nina was right, I guess you're never too old to go trick or treating.